Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Just When I Thought Attraction Is So Easy...

I'm currently reading The Secret right now, a book by Rhonda Byrne. And it was as if I was scheduled to read it.

You see, my brother and I was just surfing through our new-found torrent site. In no time, we realized that (oh yeah) we can search any book--or any ebook--we ever dreamed of reading. (Well, if you're not a fan of reading, this may not interest you, but hold on.) Out of excitement, I remembered Oprah recommending a book called The Secret. And that was that, then click! Done.

Oh wait, before the book was downloaded, I read something from a friend's blog that goes something like, "Your surroundings are but a reflection of your thoughts." I really tried to take it in, but I just can't. It was like eating liver or prunes--foods that I'd been avoiding all my life. I just can't accept the idea that I was the one who supposedly "thought" the not-so-great part of my surroundings.

But then, this came into my mind: the first step to recovering is none other than forgiving oneself, right? Well... that is, if I had really thought it. (I was so shunning the fact that I brought about such an event.)

It was still a few days when I got the chance to start reading it. We had developed a habit of reading ebooks during our shifts (when I say we, I'm referring to my hilarious friends), and that was what I was planning with my latest... discovery.

It wasn't some kind of a shocking revelation. It was like, a thing that was there all along but you just didn't take time to notice. Or in my case, it was deliberately ignored. But things have a means of finding its way to you, or it was just one of those days that you managed to attract something without realizing it. I don't know. It just came.

Maybe because I never thought it could happen to me. Or maybe I was just in the middle of two clashing things, and that when one dominated the other, it won me.

I never thought such a simple thing is so hard to accept.

Oh but wait again, I'll save this good "thinking" for next time though; my bed's already so inviting. I'll explain my pros and my cons by then.

Yes, you read it right. I have both.

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